Yep, I still haven’t learned. Remember all those blogs about learning to relax and not obsessing on goals. Remember how I was going to learn to love my own imperfection. Well, we’re still working on all that stuff.
I think I’m going to hold off on the whole 50K adventure this year. The training schedule has taken all the joy out of running.
This spring I ran a 10K trail run with a couple of friends. We just ran for the fun of it. We played in the water, stopped for snacks at the aid station and laughed so hard people thought we were delirious. We were in no particular hurry and yet all three of us medaled in our age groups. Crazy, huh?
I forget that…the part about flowing gently. I push myself too hard. I expect too much out of myself. And I end up exhausted and pissed off.
BUT I’m learning something…well, I’m learning a bunch of somethings…but primarily: life is already enough of a challenge without adding more obstacles.
As a matter of fact, there’s not a damn thing wrong with having no goals…and just FLOWING.
I like trotting along the trails, preferably with a dog. That’s what makes me happy and makes me feel complete. So no races for a while. As a matter of fact, this week I’ve only logged 14 miles. But they were fun, easy miles. And I feel renewed and relaxed.
AND I feel optimistic. There’s something really good not just right around the corner but in this moment. But that’s another blog.
In other news, since my last blog I was asked to be a foster mommy for a puppy on death row. I learned the hard way that I’m a horrible foster. After two days I put in for adoption. So meet the latest family member: Winnie.